I guess it's never too late to do something I wanted to do for a while.

Should have done this a long time ago. Yeah, it's been almost 4 months since I last see you. It's already 4 months since you gave up on me. All these time I have so many words, so many feelings and so much pain going through me...and I just let them torn me apart until the words rot and the feelings died down. Not that my feelings actually died down, lol. I just have so much feelings that the old ones just died down as they get buried by new ones. I think I should be really proud of myself for surviving up to this moment and all these pain didn't kill me. Yeah that's right...heartaches won't kill ya. You just suffer but you live on. There are so much that I want to say to you and share with you...but I don't have the right to do so anymore. You don't care anymore. Hearing from me probably bothers you.  But thank god this idea popped up in my mind...god it's been ages since I last blogged? Doesn't matter. I'm too lazy to write & keep a diary so blogging is the perfect way to let it all out. It finally allows me to tell you everything...I mean, I can pretend I'm telling you everything without bothering you...